The complication of feelings????
Happy new year everybody. How’s everybody been doing? I’m still catching up with classes, assignments, quizzes and upcoming mid-terms after a hectic new year’s eve that I had been going through. Surely it’s a memorable new year’s eve but I can’t tell where I have it here and let it just remain a memorable secret for me. Today I read a blog of a boy who is my closest friend here in IIUM but now we had grown apart because of one thing: the feelings that come between my friendship with him. I read that he was very frustrated that I rejected him that he doesn’t want to call me or message me because he was still hurt. He was so frustrated that he feel the past year had bring terrible memory for him. I cannot imagine how sad I felt when I read his blog because I have no intention at all to break his heart and I have no intention to do this to anybody in this world. Strange enough, the saying "everything that you do, will get back on you someday" really hit me hard because I also face the same situation as him that is falling in love with somebody who cannot create any feeling towards you. I cannot create any feelings towards him because I have long consider him as a friend and the same thing happens to me vice versa. I have already taste the bitterness of being rejected but yet I guess it was because I had reject him earlier. I completely understand what he feels because I experienced it too but there is one thing that I wish, never blame the person that didn’t love you back because they didn’t have any intention to break anybody’s heart. I never blame the person that I fall in love with instead I just feel grateful he still consider me as a friend. Love cannot be forced as it was a natural power that nobody can ever resist when it did comes. In the meantime, just leave everything to fate. Do not feel as if nobody will ever love you in the world.Just appreciate the friendship that we had today because we’ll never know what will happen to us tomorrow.
